Monday, March 16, 2015

First Pay Check!

Starting my third week of work..... I am so glad I stuck with it, I really like working again!
There is something so full filling being able to make money, it makes you feel useful. Now I'm not saying that being a stay at home mom wasn't full filling it was, but looking back on things I should have gone back to work when both my kids were in school for a few hours. It really would have given me confidence in myself that if need be I could have made money and been able to make a living. I think too many stay at home moms become so dependent on their husbands that they lose sight of themselves, I know I did. It took me till this year to start working one me, can you imagine a 51 year old just starting? It's really kinda sad to think about it like that though, all those years have passed and I am just now thinking about me.
My husband and I wanted to celebrate my first pay check, We didn't want to spend much money (defeats the point of making the money in the first place if you are just going to blow it). I won 2 free movie tickets so we went and watched "Fifty Shades of Grey" again, it was my third time and my husbands second time watching it.
I wanted to point out the top I am wearing, It is a Adrianna Papell Boutique Evening top. I got it at my local thrift store. I see them listed on ebay any where from $70.00 to $100.00, I bought mine for $10.00!!!! I LOVE it! I can wear it with either my jeans or if I find a dressy pair of pants.
Looking at this picture I so can see the where the added weight I have gained is sitting! The tops of my legs below the hips area is just looking awful : (  I must get with it and lose the weight again summer will be here soon and I want to wear all the great outfits I have bought.

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

"I'm Moving Out"!

That's what my daughter said to me Sunday night in anger because I told her to reschedule her meeting up with a guy friend from Orlando. She got so mad at me she was in the almost crying stage! She got a couple of bags and actually started laying out her clothes on what she was taking with her. Now where was she going to go, I don't know maybe to my son's house or maybe with this guy from Orlando that she has NEVER meet in person before.... I was so disappointed in her for pulling the "Moving Out" card. I know she is at that stage in life when things should be happening for her but right now they are not. She STILL needs to practice driving and get her drivers license, then of course get a job. As I have said before she will be floored what it will be like to work, the girl doesn't clean her room, she doesn't cook, she doesn't do anything to help around the house at all. The only thing she does do is assist me with feeding the horses which takes 15 minutes tops. But enough about all that let's get back to the "Moving Out" topic. I think this is an issue a lot of kids are facing now where they play these online games with people who become their "friends" and they think they know them but in reality they are complete strangers. I tell you I was worried about the whole issue of this guy coming up to see her especially when I had to work and she would be here alone with him. To shorten up a long night of jangled nervous and going back and forth at each other we came to the conclusion that my husband would be here to keep an eye on things (of course never mind my husband NEEDS to find a JOB which is a lot more important that watching over these two but so be it). Now I get along with ALL kinds of people, I can find things to talk about on all issues and I don't like to judge anyone but when I saw this guy I was taken aback and not in a good way.
Here he is with my daughter (my husband took the picture)
My husband had a chance to talk to the fellow for awhile and thought he was an okay guy. He said he was pleasant, respectful, soft spoken. He also has a job as a welder, his own car, & lives on his own with two of his friends. My husband LIKED him - HELLO!
The first thing I saw was the tats! It makes me so sad seeing such young people all inked up. What was cool at the moment will look terrible as you age. My Dad had tattoos on his arms & chest and he always said he wished he hadn't gotten them but it was the thing to do while in the navy. I will be honest with you, I was not the nicest while talking to the young man. I like to see some ones eyes while talking to them and his hair was almost covering them which I did not like at all. He was very nice to me and even brought me CANDY can you imagine. He knows how to get on a women good side. I didn't give the boy a chance really and he picked up on it, he even asked my daughter "Your mother hates me, doesn't she"? I am sad now looking back on my behavior! The fellow took my daughter out to dinner, than a movie. He also opened doors for her and was a gentleman which she was very impressed with. So all in all the fellow turned out to be okay, not sure if he will be seeing her again but I really must not judge so quickly!!
 
Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Saturday, March 7, 2015

First Week Of Work

My first week of work started off really rocky to say the least, but ended just great!
I LOVE my new job! The boss and I got off on the wrong foot, but once we got on the same page I think she likes me : )
Pictured above are just a few of the cuties I clean for, aren't they just darling?
I love my hours too! I have always been a early bird, but as of late been sleeping in till 8:30 or so, Now I get up at 6am and am out of the house by 7:30am and start work by 8am!
I'm still getting used to everything, but I think I'm doing an okay job.
It feels great to be a working girl again : )

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Monday, March 2, 2015

First Day At The New Job

WOW! What a day!!!!! I'm not speaking in a good way either : (
It went horribly, and that is putting it mildly.
I got there before the boss got there which I thought looked real good for me.
I knew I was in trouble the minute we got started, I could do no right in her eyes.
This is not rocket science here, it is cleaning cat boxes and an office area.
She has her way of cleaning and she wants it done that way which I had no problem with but she found a problem with EVERTHING I did. She had me running in circles in my mind, she had no patients for me at all. She laughed at me at one point.
After I completed the cleaning, she sat me down in a chair and asked if I was coming back tomorrow. I really think she was hoping I would quit. I told her that I did plan on coming back tomorrow, I can't just give up so quickly.
I can not tell you how SAD I feel!!!! I mean this is a simple cleaning job and it is perfect for me but to have such a lady as a boss I am afraid I will never make her happy no matter what the quality of my work will be.
I had such high hopes for me and this job it was to be a new beginning......
Please send prayers my way that the job takes a turn for the better.

P.S. - As the day is progressing my self esteem is really taking a hit. I have not felt this low about myself - maybe never...... It's hard for me to even move through the day without a thought to the JOB. I keep thinking how worthless I am if I can't even do a cleaning job. I mean I have cleaned for 30 years and I can't even get that right?????
All I can say is I will pray tonight that God guides me in the right direction on this matter.

Until Next Time - God Bless!!