What a difference a day makes.....

Friday I felt like I was finally on the road to getting my mojo back, I was excited about reading the new Trim Health Mama book from my library as I had posted they weren't open. So fast forward to today which I was hoping was going to be a redo of Friday but with getting the book well hell no it turned out to be a crappy day! My boss was a beast today, I never know which boss I am getting the nice friendly one or the one who is bitchy about everything. I knew from them minute I walked into the door the day was going to be one of those days that I hate, but thank God I am only there for three hours! After I got off of work I went over and picked up the Trim Healthy Mama book and said to myself that I really need to read it and understand it and put it in to action asap! I weighed myself this morning and I weigh 146.2 lbs.!!!!! Hello, I haven't been that heavy in a LONG time and it made me feel so down and distraught about myself. I sat out in the sun (I know not good for the winkles) and started reading it. The sun made me sleepy and I came in and took a nap : (  How can I ever lose weight if I am always tired? I took about an hour nap and then read a little than took a walk around the block, I guess it's a start. Stress is a killer it just saps the life right out of you for sure, I need to focus my stress into walking. I want to take a before picture of what my body looks like now and then each month as I am on the Trim Healthy Mama plan. Well I'm off to do some reading, Good night all!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Tick Bite - Oh My!

Okay Scary stuff here! I got a tick bite on my back and dam it looks nasty already!

Of course I have been reading all about lyme disease and sure hope I don't get that!!

In all the site I have read it says if the bulls eye pattern shows up 7 to 10 days after the bite, this mess showed up while the tick was still on biting me. I guess I will just keep an eye on it and watch for symptoms to show up as I really would hate going to the clinic and having to pay $45.00 and have them tell me there is no reason to worry about the bit.

Life sure is never a dull moment!!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Bubble Busted

Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving! The way I think of it is one holiday down one more to go..... I know that's a terrible way to think about it but that's the way it feels for me.
I was feeling a bit on the jovial side lately which always seems to come with a punch in the guy around the corner and of course it happened. I was feeling so happy that my local library got the new Trim Healthy Mama book. I have the older version but it is so large and I had such a hard time wrapping my brain around it, so I am hoping this book condenses the information in a easier was for me to understand it. Well like how I get when I am all jazzed up about something I couldn't wait till I got out of work on Friday to pick up the book, I had planned on spending the weekend with a glass of ice water and my book out on the lounge chair sitting in the sun - but no! The library was closed Friday, I guess they took the day after the holiday off too. That was a downer but I figured this will give me some time to focus on cleaning the house, which I did mop the floors (still a total mess). I get the mail and bam! We owe $250.37 on our electric bill and they are shutting us off December 4th. That just blew all of the steam I had in me out. This is why I tell you you need to work on all areas of your life if you plan on losing and keeping off the weight! When you hit up against stressful you have to be able to handle it without food being your comforter! Do you know what I did when I opened the bill? I threw in a pot pie into the micro wave because it was an easy meal and it was something I didn't have to think about. Pot pies are a terrible meal to have if you are trying to lose weight, I think they are like 350 calories plus I don't eat meat so I only eat the crust - Hello! Why blow that many calories on that! Anyway, I am totally deflated. All that get up and go attitude has left me. We are just under water with bills, I pray that we get this under control soon - It is just so stressful it ruins every day!!
Thank you for letting me ramble on and vent - It does help.

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Trolling Around Face Book

Okay have you ever trolled your high school classmates on face book? The other night I was just looking around for some lost friends and found classmate who has a boat load of our class on her face book page so I looked them over. Dam who would have thought how some of them look now! One guy in particular was a very popular hottie in school and now he is mister biker guy, it just made me sit there and wonder wow really? One of my best friends has a daughter who is in a wheel chair due to seizures, it just made me feel so blessed about my life! I know I complain all the time lately about everything but really in the grand scheme of things my children/grandchildren are healthy, my husband & I are happy on the marriage front and are some what healthy so what the hell am I complaining about?????? I also found my old boyfriend, he got married two years after I did and has been married to her ever since. It's so strange looking at someone that you were so close with have another life. I have to say he has not aged well, now I'm not saying that to be a snot it just is true. Back when you are young and just starting your adult life you make choices that are either a good thing or maybe a bad one, I look at his face and think I spent four years with that guy and almost everyone thought we would get married but than God brought my present husband into my life and that changed everything for me. I am happy to see he looks happy with his wife and children and that things are as they should be : )
BUT having said all that while looking around I also looked at my face book photos and DAM I really want to get back to my sassy self. So today I am really pulling up the boot straps and trying to get back on the weight loss journey!!
I weighed in at 144.4 pounds this morning - Lets see how things go!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Shhhhh I going to be a Grandma Again!!!!!!

Woo Hoo!! I am so excited! It was unexpected when my son & daughter-in-law had us over to dinner last night to tell us the wonderful news!!! My grand daughter just turned one in October so they will be close in age. My daughter-in-law is keeping the news quiet until she gets further along (she is about 4 or 5 weeks along). It is just so hard to believe my son having children, when I look at him I still see the little chubby guy who I would prop up on the couch and take endless pictures of, when we would go sleigh riding down out drive way, he would drive his little motor car around the block and now he is a father to not just one but to children!! I pray that my daughter-in-law has a easier pregnancy than last time! That girl had one issue after another..... but what a baby she & my son made : ) I just keep smiling when I think of the addition to our family!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

I Asked God Who I'm Supposed To Be

I was watching a movie and this quote came up and it got me thinking.
I wonder if this question is ever answered in a life time?
Do you ever really know who you are? Or are we always changing?
It would be wonderful if God just came in and showed us what we are ment to do with this precious life he has given us but no we have to figure it out and sometimes we never do!

"Last Holiday" DVD

"Last Holiday" - I just LOVE this movie! I really think it has become one of my all time favorites! I love the part where Georgia says " You wait and wait for something big to happen and then you find out your going to die". It's that the truth? I know it is for me. Time goes by so fast that you don't even know where the days go. Another saying she says that I love is "I have lived my whole life in a box, I don't want to be buried in one" - Wow! I just really relate to this too. I have felt like I have ALWAYS taken the " don't rock the boat" route during this life and it makes me feel like I have missed out on many things. I know what you are saying, "the grass is not always greener on the other side" but you only go thru life once. In the movie she has a "possibilities book" which I think is a wonderful idea for everyone to do. I mean if you visualize your dreams maybe you can more of an effort to make them come true. In the movie she travels and blows a ton of cash (which of course you would need to make a lot of your dreams come true). I think that's why so many people just give up on their dreams, if by your fifties you don't have any cash for your day to day bills how the hell are you going to have money to blow making your dreams come true which sends so many people into a depressive state. In the movie she goes into a upscale clothes store and tries on many different clothes and all of the outfits give her a major boost, which I have personally found to be true (of course my clothes come from the thrift stores}.

The night I wore this dress & shoes I felt like a million bucks, I felt the best I have ever felt in my life!! That's why I could just kick myself in my fat butt now for letting my weight balloon again. Life is too short to not feel your best and if you feel your best EVERYTHING in your life just seems to be better. So number one in my "possibility book" is to get my self eating right again so I can look and feel my best!!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!