Test Results

I wanted to start off with the results of my blood work - It all came back normal. How about that, on one hand I am over joyed that everything that they checked for came back good, but on the other hand it makes me so sad that we can not pin point what is the problem with me. I do have to say the antibiotic she gave me started to work, I wasn't feeling that bone tired feeling. Once the test results came back normal I wasn't able to get a refill of the prescription which was such a bummer! I pray that I will continue to feel better!
As for the weight issue, I weighed in at 153lbs. at the doctors office (that's with my pants & shoes on), since Valentine's Day with eating all of the chocolate I am not weighing in at 155lbs.!! Holy Hell if that isn't just a kick in the teeth. I hate it so much it makes me sick to think I need to lose 25lbs. AGAIN! Tomorrow is my daughter's 21st. birthday and I anticipate having cake and ice cream but come Sat. I need to get with it and start really watching what the hell I am eating!1

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Visit To The Doctors

Well I grabbed the bull by the horn and went to the doctors!
I am so sick and tired of feeling tired all the time.
They took 5 viles of blood, they are checking about the tick bite if I have lyme disease. The doctor is going to start me on antibiotic even before the blood results come back. They also are testing my thyroid, that may be the reason for my fatigue. I just pray that everything turns out okay. I have to say the nurse practitioner that I go to didn't even touch me during my visit! Can you imagine, she just talked and asked questions..... the nurse took my blood pressure and it was high 140 over 90 (she wants me to keep checking it at Publix).
I pray that I can get my energy back!!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Sat. - What To Do?

I have the day all to myself! I am finding that I really love not having anything do or have anyone around (my daughter is sleeping and my husband is off to work).
Of course I could be cleaning, which I should be but.... I have other ideas at this time.
I have been fooling around on facebook again finding other friends from my past - I am really liking touching base with them I don't know why I didn't do it sooner. I am still hoping it will be a motivator in my weight loss. I found one friend of mine from many years ago who looks amazing! She could be an older aged model for sure, I hope to get some skin care tips from her : ) I also found one friend I went to school with and she was my best friend for years, I sent a friend request haven't heard back yet. Her pictures show that we had our first babies around the same time, it looks like her daughter has some major health issues - It made me really think how I so seldom give thanks for things like the health of my children and grand daughter!
As for the weight: 150.6 this morning at around 9:30am! Yikes! My plan is to NOT buy any more chocolate chips or the Coca-Cola life soda (90 calories a can) I have been getting. I just have to STOP!
I was hoping for a nice sunny warm day out so I could sit in the sun and read but right now not looking so sunny : (
Hope you all enjoy your day!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Looking Chubby!!

Do you ever have a debate with yourself while you are at the grocery store about what to buy? That was me today, even before I got out of my car I was going back and forth with myself about not buying the chocolate chips for my oatmeal. I know the oatmeal is good for me (now that I have stopped using the milk and switched to either unsweetened almond milk or cashew milk). I think I only eat it because of the chocolate chips : (  I bought bananas and am going to try to add them to it and see if I will like that instead BUT I did also buy the chocolate chips! Yes, I have already had two big bowls of it! I obviously can not control myself with it so why do I buy it!! I just need to stop buying it and MAKE myself eat something else! Now I just have to talk myself in to doing that.
Did I mention that yesterday my husband had his arm around my waist and he said, now I am quoting "You are getting chunky again"! Yes, he did! It the truth but DAM! It made me so sad. I worked so hard to get thin and feel great and now it is all gone. I have lost the umph I need to get back in shape. It's funny how right after I eat something bad for me, I'm am always like "Yep I am getting back on track and am going to lose the weight" but than time passes and I get hungry and start looking for a snack : (
I have been actively looking for friends and family on facebook, It has been like doing genealogy. I have found a couple of really wonderful people I have missed. I really is so strange to see people you haven't seen in years and see that they have aged. I look at them and think gosh they got older.... not thinking I got older too. Anyway, like I said I am trying to use it as a weight loss tool.
Weighed in today at 3:00 in the afternoon at 151.2 pounds - Good God!!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Stop The Madness!

Had another terrible eating day! It's crazy too because I have grapes in the fridge and nuts - that was what helped me last time. I ate chips, potato wedges, ect. I just don't have it under control yet : ( As I read "It is all fun and games until you can't zip up your pants any more", that's where I am at right now. I fooled around with food and I lost!
I have figured out one thing, I don't want to buy the THM cookbook. I think it will just overwhelm me with not being able to buy all the extra ingredients.
I am really enjoying reading "The Best of Everything After 50", it has had a lot of good tips. I look forward to reading the rest of the book and I'll give you a review of it when I finish it.

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Excuses, Excuses, I Got A Bunch

I think facebook is trying to help me lose weight, they showed me a post from two years ago. It happened to be New Years Eve when we went out to dinner and I look good in the picture. I was so much thinner and happier looking than I go now which makes me so sad.
I weighed in this afternoon at 149.2, but the really scary thing is I ate a large kit kat candy bar on the way home from work, than I had potato chips and a pot pie when I got home! What the HELL right? How the hell do I think I can lose weight if I keep eating like that?
I always have excuses for everything and the excuse I have this week it has been so cold here I just can't get warm. The other excuse is that work is like riding a roller coaster from one day to the next I never know if it will be a good day or stress filled one. That is one thing I did not deal with when I lost the 50 pounds previously. I NEED to stop making excuses and get with it!!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

It's Only Monday?

I can't believe it is only Monday! My day started off great, I actually wasn't asking myself "How soon can I take a nap"? I felt a change today I had energy. I got to work and my day came crashing down! My boss asked me into her office which is never a good thing. Sure enough the kittens at our shop got an eye infections which of course she feels is my fault. I do everything I can every day to keep those kittens and cats healthy, so I don't know what else I could have done.... The day just went on and on, it is a shame.
I got home and I didn't need a nap! That is really a big deal for me. I sat outside (it was chilly) and read so I could get my vitamin D. I decided to get my daughter up and we took Chance our horse out for a ride. Since we now only have one horse we take turns riding and one of us walks which is great exercise.
I weighed in today at about 5pm (too cold to take a shower in the am.) and the scale said - 150.2 pounds! Good God!!! I keep gaining : (
I really have to start a food journal to help me keep track of what I have been eating.

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

FaceBook

This weekend I have been spending time researching friends & family on facebook. It really is an eye opener! It is amazing when looking at kids you went to school with and you see them as much older adults some even looking "Old". I hooked up with some family I haven't seen in years which made me feel good : ) I even sent a friend request to my sister-in-law who I have had negative feelings towards. Time is too short to wait around and hold on to negativity!! It is so fun to read about what my extended family is up to and see their children grow. Of course facebook can make you envious of what you don't have or the place you haven't gone to ect. but I think it is worth it to put yourself out there and just stay in touch with those who you are connected to.
Now, Let me just say I think it may be also a weight loss helper! Who wanted to look like crap in front of those who haven't see you? Right? I am so hoping this helps me get back on the weight loss horse.
I weighed in this morning at 147.6lbs. down a pound..... not great but hey, it's something.

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

What A Good Quote To Live By!!

Power Ball Dreaming!

Well I am still Power Ball dreaming for Wed. drawing!! It has been so fun to dream of what we would do with all that money. I know everyone is hoping it is going to be them to win but I really pray that we will win a chunk (I don't need the whole billion). I know the chances of winning are not good but it sure has made people crazy hasn't it. My daughter-in-law who works at Publix food store said one guy came in and spent $1,000 on tickets. I will be buying our three tickets tomorrow - sure hope they are winners : )
I weighed in again this morning and am still at 147.8lbs (not very good at all). I just have not been able to get organized with my choices of what I should be eating. Like tonight I got home from a mega thrift store shopping trip with my daughter-in-law & grand daughter and ate 2 pot pies because I was starving! Than I ate potatoes chips & had handfuls of chocolate chips too! Just terrible choices, what was I thinking!! Here I had done a lot of walking today to burn some calories and nope I blew it by eating junk.
I have been really trying to remember what I ate when I lost the 50 lbs. and it all comes back to having the grapes & nuts for snacks, eggs for breakfast, lunch - was a "morning star farm chicken patty on bread with grapes, dinner - "chicken patty" with veg., applesauce and that is it. I have been having the hardest time finding grapes that are worth buying (they are pretty expensive here) so that has been throwing me off my game.
Well tomorrow is another day!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Praying for good things to happen

Wow, What an incredibly hard time I am having getting on the Tim Healthy Mama plan! I just can't seem to get with it! I know I said I wanted to be more positive in my posts but gosh dam I just can't get going with this weight loss thing. Today, I ate a Kit Cat candy bar!! I just can't seem to stop myself, when I get the urge to eat junk food I just go for it. I weighed in today at 147.2 pounds, all of my pants are tight as hell. I pray I can get control of this. I was so much happier when I was thinner.
On a hopeful note, I bought a power ball lottery ticket - I pray to God that we win!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Hello New Year!

It is always refreshing to start a New Year! I love the potential that it brings, you just never know what might happen!
I of course started my New Year with the intent on losing these dam 20 pounds that I have gained. I bought a couple of items from the Trim Healthy Mama book to get started  (I spent $20.00 that really should have been directed to other areas). I always have high hopes and jump into things gung ho and then falter so quickly. As you know I lost the 50 pounds using the Trim Healthy Mama program loosely, kinda doing my own thing but using their principles. I was so easy for me back then that I am SHOCKED at how poorly I am able to get it back going. Yesterday I was okay, I did have a ton of cheats but I was a bit more in control. Today is a different story and I really don't know why! I went shopping down to Target to get just a few things and I blew it!! I bought the Milano cookies AGAIN. I was almost out the door and they had them by the cash register and I had this overwhelming need for them. The scary part it I ate the WHOLE bag in the car even before I got home. Now what is that all about?????? I think maybe I should just stay the hell out of the stores!
I did get a good book that I am reading called: "The Best of Everything After 50" by Barbara Hannah Grufferman. I haven't gotten very far into it yet but I will let you know what I thought of it as soon as I complete it. I am also in the process of reading: "Trim Healthy Mama Plan" by Pearl Barrett & Serene Allison, "1 Year 100 Pounds" by  Whitney Holcombe, "The Body Book" by Cameron Diaz, and "Wildflower" by Drew Barrymore - Whew,  I sure have a lot of books going at the same time! I LOVE to read, especially self help books! Having said that though they sure can send you in a dozen different directions on how to improve yourself!
Hope the New Year is treating you well!!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!