Looking Chubby!!

Do you ever have a debate with yourself while you are at the grocery store about what to buy? That was me today, even before I got out of my car I was going back and forth with myself about not buying the chocolate chips for my oatmeal. I know the oatmeal is good for me (now that I have stopped using the milk and switched to either unsweetened almond milk or cashew milk). I think I only eat it because of the chocolate chips : (  I bought bananas and am going to try to add them to it and see if I will like that instead BUT I did also buy the chocolate chips! Yes, I have already had two big bowls of it! I obviously can not control myself with it so why do I buy it!! I just need to stop buying it and MAKE myself eat something else! Now I just have to talk myself in to doing that.
Did I mention that yesterday my husband had his arm around my waist and he said, now I am quoting "You are getting chunky again"! Yes, he did! It the truth but DAM! It made me so sad. I worked so hard to get thin and feel great and now it is all gone. I have lost the umph I need to get back in shape. It's funny how right after I eat something bad for me, I'm am always like "Yep I am getting back on track and am going to lose the weight" but than time passes and I get hungry and start looking for a snack : (
I have been actively looking for friends and family on facebook, It has been like doing genealogy. I have found a couple of really wonderful people I have missed. I really is so strange to see people you haven't seen in years and see that they have aged. I look at them and think gosh they got older.... not thinking I got older too. Anyway, like I said I am trying to use it as a weight loss tool.
Weighed in today at 3:00 in the afternoon at 151.2 pounds - Good God!!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Stop The Madness!

Had another terrible eating day! It's crazy too because I have grapes in the fridge and nuts - that was what helped me last time. I ate chips, potato wedges, ect. I just don't have it under control yet : ( As I read "It is all fun and games until you can't zip up your pants any more", that's where I am at right now. I fooled around with food and I lost!
I have figured out one thing, I don't want to buy the THM cookbook. I think it will just overwhelm me with not being able to buy all the extra ingredients.
I am really enjoying reading "The Best of Everything After 50", it has had a lot of good tips. I look forward to reading the rest of the book and I'll give you a review of it when I finish it.

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Excuses, Excuses, I Got A Bunch

I think facebook is trying to help me lose weight, they showed me a post from two years ago. It happened to be New Years Eve when we went out to dinner and I look good in the picture. I was so much thinner and happier looking than I go now which makes me so sad.
I weighed in this afternoon at 149.2, but the really scary thing is I ate a large kit kat candy bar on the way home from work, than I had potato chips and a pot pie when I got home! What the HELL right? How the hell do I think I can lose weight if I keep eating like that?
I always have excuses for everything and the excuse I have this week it has been so cold here I just can't get warm. The other excuse is that work is like riding a roller coaster from one day to the next I never know if it will be a good day or stress filled one. That is one thing I did not deal with when I lost the 50 pounds previously. I NEED to stop making excuses and get with it!!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

It's Only Monday?

I can't believe it is only Monday! My day started off great, I actually wasn't asking myself "How soon can I take a nap"? I felt a change today I had energy. I got to work and my day came crashing down! My boss asked me into her office which is never a good thing. Sure enough the kittens at our shop got an eye infections which of course she feels is my fault. I do everything I can every day to keep those kittens and cats healthy, so I don't know what else I could have done.... The day just went on and on, it is a shame.
I got home and I didn't need a nap! That is really a big deal for me. I sat outside (it was chilly) and read so I could get my vitamin D. I decided to get my daughter up and we took Chance our horse out for a ride. Since we now only have one horse we take turns riding and one of us walks which is great exercise.
I weighed in today at about 5pm (too cold to take a shower in the am.) and the scale said - 150.2 pounds! Good God!!! I keep gaining : (
I really have to start a food journal to help me keep track of what I have been eating.

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

FaceBook

This weekend I have been spending time researching friends & family on facebook. It really is an eye opener! It is amazing when looking at kids you went to school with and you see them as much older adults some even looking "Old". I hooked up with some family I haven't seen in years which made me feel good : ) I even sent a friend request to my sister-in-law who I have had negative feelings towards. Time is too short to wait around and hold on to negativity!! It is so fun to read about what my extended family is up to and see their children grow. Of course facebook can make you envious of what you don't have or the place you haven't gone to ect. but I think it is worth it to put yourself out there and just stay in touch with those who you are connected to.
Now, Let me just say I think it may be also a weight loss helper! Who wanted to look like crap in front of those who haven't see you? Right? I am so hoping this helps me get back on the weight loss horse.
I weighed in this morning at 147.6lbs. down a pound..... not great but hey, it's something.

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

What A Good Quote To Live By!!

Power Ball Dreaming!

Well I am still Power Ball dreaming for Wed. drawing!! It has been so fun to dream of what we would do with all that money. I know everyone is hoping it is going to be them to win but I really pray that we will win a chunk (I don't need the whole billion). I know the chances of winning are not good but it sure has made people crazy hasn't it. My daughter-in-law who works at Publix food store said one guy came in and spent $1,000 on tickets. I will be buying our three tickets tomorrow - sure hope they are winners : )
I weighed in again this morning and am still at 147.8lbs (not very good at all). I just have not been able to get organized with my choices of what I should be eating. Like tonight I got home from a mega thrift store shopping trip with my daughter-in-law & grand daughter and ate 2 pot pies because I was starving! Than I ate potatoes chips & had handfuls of chocolate chips too! Just terrible choices, what was I thinking!! Here I had done a lot of walking today to burn some calories and nope I blew it by eating junk.
I have been really trying to remember what I ate when I lost the 50 lbs. and it all comes back to having the grapes & nuts for snacks, eggs for breakfast, lunch - was a "morning star farm chicken patty on bread with grapes, dinner - "chicken patty" with veg., applesauce and that is it. I have been having the hardest time finding grapes that are worth buying (they are pretty expensive here) so that has been throwing me off my game.
Well tomorrow is another day!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!