Holidays

I find the holidays to be such a sad time......
We haven't even gotten to December and I feel like crying already! I get a knot in my belly when I read about all those who went black Friday shopping and did their Christmas shopping already. I smile at those folks who tell me what they are going to buy for this person or that person knowing I will not be able to get those I love what I want for them this year. We have had hard times before and by God grace we got thru them, which I pray will happen again this time. When you get into your 50's things should not be this hard. I have said it before but it is true, I never in my wildest dreams thought we would be in a situation where we have to decide every time we shop which items to buy and what we have to do without just because we don't have enough money. I just HATE that this is my granddaughter's first Christmas and I will be lucky if I can buy her a $15.00 glow worm doll! I feel like shit to tell you the truth. As I said we have been in this situation before when my husband ran out of unemployment and we had no money coming in at all. That's an eye opener for sure, you just pray a lot that things will improve. I feel the same situation is lining up for us again, he runs out of unemployment right after Christmas, which is a terrible time to be looking for a job! We are up to our eyeballs with bills (It's funny we have very few bills compared to most others but we still can't get them paid), we owe the electric company two months come Dec. 11th. so we should be getting a shut off notice any day now for the $130.00. Then we have car insurance which we wait to pay until we get the cancellation notice each month from them. We do have internet which costs us $41.00 a month which we try and pay just before the next payment is due so they don't shut that off (my husband has been searching for jobs with it so it is needed). The killer is the car, it broke down two weeks ago, that bill was around $250.00 - we paid $150.00 from that weeks unemployment check which put us behind on all of our bills. Then what happens this week, Yep the dam thing broke down AGAIN and had to be towed in. Here's the kicker this time it cost $400.00 to get fixed!!!!! So now we owe the car repair guy $500.00, he said we can pay a little each week which is very nice of him since my husband is going to need a working car if he is ever to get back to work. But we are just at our wits end thinking about how we are going to make it thru this week with only $38.00 left in checking and we won't get another unemployment check until Dec. 10th.!!!!! We have no food stamp money left either, we get that on Dec. 8th. but I think I have enough things on had to get us thru on food (I hope). We can't ask my son for money because they are up to their eyeballs with all the new expenses with having a baby so where do we turn....... Prayer is our only hope.
If you don't mind please keep us in your prayers.
Thank You!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!