I cracked!

Yep, I cracked! I was at work Thursday and it all fell apart for me. My boss was being snotty with me and I just broke down. I know it sounds funny coming from a 52 year old women but I just couldn't keep myself together. I got up from my desk and just told her "I can NOT do this" and grabbed my purse. I was ready to leave again similar to when I started working for her. She grabbed me and told me to sit down that I wasn't leaving, that if I left now we were done. I told her I understood that I would lose the cleaning job too and was ready to give it all up. Now of course this was my worst nightmare and what I was praying would NOT happen, losing the cleaning job which I really like but I totally understood. She would NOT let me go every time I tried to tell her I was done she kept telling me "No your not". Anyway to make a long story short I am still working there. She has gone easier on me and even bought me flowers, so I PRAY that this all works out. I give 110% of myself and it just kills me when I can't do the job the way she expects!
The one thing I am proud of is that I AM able to work full time! I have to say I was worried I just didn't have it in me to be able to work an 8 hour day (of course I am only working 7 hours but who's counting). I have talked with a lot of other women in my age bracket and they all say the same thing when I asked how they get it ALL done in a day and they said "You just do it". Once I get out of work I usually go to the food store to pick up a few things (I need to stop this and shop better during the weekend so I can just shoot home after work). I get home and start dinner (of course so far dinner still falls on me to do even though my husband is working the same amount as me now), then my daughter and I go down to take care of the cat/bird we are baby sitting for. Once all that is done we feed our horses, walk our dogs ect., I can tell you I am DEAD after all that! I do have to say my daughter and I were watching a dvd each night and it really helped me unwined and get ready for bed. 
To top it all off having like no time to eat lunch has made me lose 2 pounds since starting work this week - I am down to 142.2!! Yea! Now as long as I don't eat a ton during the weekend I should be okay.
Tonight I went over and spent some time with my grand daughter. That is what really is important in life! Everything else can either work out or not, but family is all you have so really let them know you LOVE them!!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!