Have you noticed how when you are depressed nothing makes you feel better than eating chocolate? I was just tossing down handfuls of them in hopes of getting a pick me up.... the only thing that you get from them is more discouraged thinking now you are gaining more weight that you don't want! You know the saying a moment on the lips a life time on the hips - Isn't that the truth!
Anyway, I weighed myself last night I am up to 132lbs., I'm not really sure what I had gotten down to maybe 120lbs. but I felt ALOT thinner back than and looked a whole hell of a lot better than I do now so I want to get back to that!
I also want to check my measurements to see where I am with that, I've noticed that since I have been gaining it is ALL going straight to my belly!
I have got to find the old me who was sassy and had energy again. This Donna is always tired and depressed - Be gone with her!!!!!
For breakfast I had two eggs with 5 slices of moringstar farms bacon and a water.
Lunch I had 2 sliced of regular white bread (I can't buy the 45 calorie whole wheat bread I usually get), buffalo chicken patty, a little mayo, a little ketchup and a few grapes.
For dinner I had fried rice, morningstar farm buffalo chicken patty, peas & applesauce.
I did cheat with some peanut butter (which I used to HATE but now I LOVE it) and some more chocolate morsals.
Then while watching Julia & Julie the movie I had another bowl of oatmeal with a few chocolate morsals tossed in. Yikes! I am out of control with eating!
Help!!!!!
On a good note, my husband got a call about a possible job! It is only a couple of days if he gets it so we will see but we are desperate for some money......
Until Next Time - God Bless!!
Sunday, November 30, 2014
Saturday, November 29, 2014
Holidays
I find the holidays to be such a sad time......
We haven't even gotten to December and I feel like crying already! I get a knot in my belly when I read about all those who went black Friday shopping and did their Christmas shopping already. I smile at those folks who tell me what they are going to buy for this person or that person knowing I will not be able to get those I love what I want for them this year. We have had hard times before and by God grace we got thru them, which I pray will happen again this time. When you get into your 50's things should not be this hard. I have said it before but it is true, I never in my wildest dreams thought we would be in a situation where we have to decide every time we shop which items to buy and what we have to do without just because we don't have enough money. I just HATE that this is my granddaughter's first Christmas and I will be lucky if I can buy her a $15.00 glow worm doll! I feel like shit to tell you the truth. As I said we have been in this situation before when my husband ran out of unemployment and we had no money coming in at all. That's an eye opener for sure, you just pray a lot that things will improve. I feel the same situation is lining up for us again, he runs out of unemployment right after Christmas, which is a terrible time to be looking for a job! We are up to our eyeballs with bills (It's funny we have very few bills compared to most others but we still can't get them paid), we owe the electric company two months come Dec. 11th. so we should be getting a shut off notice any day now for the $130.00. Then we have car insurance which we wait to pay until we get the cancellation notice each month from them. We do have internet which costs us $41.00 a month which we try and pay just before the next payment is due so they don't shut that off (my husband has been searching for jobs with it so it is needed). The killer is the car, it broke down two weeks ago, that bill was around $250.00 - we paid $150.00 from that weeks unemployment check which put us behind on all of our bills. Then what happens this week, Yep the dam thing broke down AGAIN and had to be towed in. Here's the kicker this time it cost $400.00 to get fixed!!!!! So now we owe the car repair guy $500.00, he said we can pay a little each week which is very nice of him since my husband is going to need a working car if he is ever to get back to work. But we are just at our wits end thinking about how we are going to make it thru this week with only $38.00 left in checking and we won't get another unemployment check until Dec. 10th.!!!!! We have no food stamp money left either, we get that on Dec. 8th. but I think I have enough things on had to get us thru on food (I hope). We can't ask my son for money because they are up to their eyeballs with all the new expenses with having a baby so where do we turn....... Prayer is our only hope.
If you don't mind please keep us in your prayers.
Thank You!
Until Next Time - God Bless!!
We haven't even gotten to December and I feel like crying already! I get a knot in my belly when I read about all those who went black Friday shopping and did their Christmas shopping already. I smile at those folks who tell me what they are going to buy for this person or that person knowing I will not be able to get those I love what I want for them this year. We have had hard times before and by God grace we got thru them, which I pray will happen again this time. When you get into your 50's things should not be this hard. I have said it before but it is true, I never in my wildest dreams thought we would be in a situation where we have to decide every time we shop which items to buy and what we have to do without just because we don't have enough money. I just HATE that this is my granddaughter's first Christmas and I will be lucky if I can buy her a $15.00 glow worm doll! I feel like shit to tell you the truth. As I said we have been in this situation before when my husband ran out of unemployment and we had no money coming in at all. That's an eye opener for sure, you just pray a lot that things will improve. I feel the same situation is lining up for us again, he runs out of unemployment right after Christmas, which is a terrible time to be looking for a job! We are up to our eyeballs with bills (It's funny we have very few bills compared to most others but we still can't get them paid), we owe the electric company two months come Dec. 11th. so we should be getting a shut off notice any day now for the $130.00. Then we have car insurance which we wait to pay until we get the cancellation notice each month from them. We do have internet which costs us $41.00 a month which we try and pay just before the next payment is due so they don't shut that off (my husband has been searching for jobs with it so it is needed). The killer is the car, it broke down two weeks ago, that bill was around $250.00 - we paid $150.00 from that weeks unemployment check which put us behind on all of our bills. Then what happens this week, Yep the dam thing broke down AGAIN and had to be towed in. Here's the kicker this time it cost $400.00 to get fixed!!!!! So now we owe the car repair guy $500.00, he said we can pay a little each week which is very nice of him since my husband is going to need a working car if he is ever to get back to work. But we are just at our wits end thinking about how we are going to make it thru this week with only $38.00 left in checking and we won't get another unemployment check until Dec. 10th.!!!!! We have no food stamp money left either, we get that on Dec. 8th. but I think I have enough things on had to get us thru on food (I hope). We can't ask my son for money because they are up to their eyeballs with all the new expenses with having a baby so where do we turn....... Prayer is our only hope.
If you don't mind please keep us in your prayers.
Thank You!
Until Next Time - God Bless!!
Friday, November 28, 2014
Happy Day After Thanksgiving!
Hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving with their family & friends. We had a lovely lunch over at my son & daughter-in-laws house. Getting to hold my granddaughter is what life is all about..... so thankful!
And seeing her smile at me just warms my heart!!!
Being a grandma is like looking at your life all over again with glasses on : )
You are able to see all the things that are important and all the things you stresses over that really didn't matter at all.
I just pray my son and his family have good health, joy & laughter through out their lives!
Until Next Time - God Bless!!
Sunday, November 23, 2014
Another Picture of Kylee Marie
My daughter-in-law had a photographer come at take Kylee's picture,
I thought this one came out great : )
Friday, November 21, 2014
Sorry I Haven't Posted Much.....
I had hoped to up-date this but for one reason or another I never seem to get here and post..... I think of things to say but yet don't do it!
Anyway, As you can see I keep changing the title of this blog from one name to another. I just can't seem to find the right title that fits me. I kinda like the new one I have come up with, I'll live with it for awhile and see if I'll keep it.
So much and really nothing has been going one. It is kinda like the running in place and not going anywhere mode. We are facing a rough patch right now and it is very depressing to say the least. My husband is STILL not working, but he is getting unemployment which keeps us some what afloat. We also qualified for food stamps which has been a huge help. What really scares me is the unemployment runs out right after Christmas, that's a really tough time to find a job. He doesn't seemed worried about it at all so I just try and not think about all that.
We are getting audited by the IRS! I sent all our paper work in on that mess, I sure hope they find that the error they are saying which will cost us to pay another $2,000 plus is not correct.
We have been having car troubles, one jeep leaks gas, the other jeep just died when we were at Target for no reason. Had to have it towed no less then a block away - they charged us $60.00 for towing (Yikes). That repair bill was $238.00, we paid the repair guy half and hope to be able to pay him some more from the next unemployment check but we are behind on our electric & car insurance - It never ends.
But as I posted the best thing is that I am a GRANDMA! Kylee is a doll. It really is so different being a grandma compared to a mom. I try and help when I can but I don't want to step on my daughter-in-laws toes. We hardly have gas money to get over to see her but when we do I hold her the whole time I can : )
Life sure does have many seasons, some good, some terrible, but it goes on.
Until Next Time - God Bless!
Anyway, As you can see I keep changing the title of this blog from one name to another. I just can't seem to find the right title that fits me. I kinda like the new one I have come up with, I'll live with it for awhile and see if I'll keep it.
So much and really nothing has been going one. It is kinda like the running in place and not going anywhere mode. We are facing a rough patch right now and it is very depressing to say the least. My husband is STILL not working, but he is getting unemployment which keeps us some what afloat. We also qualified for food stamps which has been a huge help. What really scares me is the unemployment runs out right after Christmas, that's a really tough time to find a job. He doesn't seemed worried about it at all so I just try and not think about all that.
We are getting audited by the IRS! I sent all our paper work in on that mess, I sure hope they find that the error they are saying which will cost us to pay another $2,000 plus is not correct.
We have been having car troubles, one jeep leaks gas, the other jeep just died when we were at Target for no reason. Had to have it towed no less then a block away - they charged us $60.00 for towing (Yikes). That repair bill was $238.00, we paid the repair guy half and hope to be able to pay him some more from the next unemployment check but we are behind on our electric & car insurance - It never ends.
But as I posted the best thing is that I am a GRANDMA! Kylee is a doll. It really is so different being a grandma compared to a mom. I try and help when I can but I don't want to step on my daughter-in-laws toes. We hardly have gas money to get over to see her but when we do I hold her the whole time I can : )
Life sure does have many seasons, some good, some terrible, but it goes on.
Until Next Time - God Bless!
Tuesday, November 11, 2014
I'm A Grandma!!!!!
Isn't she just darling??????
She was born on October 17th at 6:o3am., weighing in at 7lbs. 3oz.
I'm in LOVE : )
Saturday, September 27, 2014
Life Has Taken A Turn For The Not So Good
Sorry it has been so long since my last post!!!!!
Life has taken a turn for the not so good at my house : (
My husband got fired from his job...... needless to say I am a nervous wreak about it.
There aren't many jobs/companies looking for 53 year olds to hire. To be honest with you I am scared to death. As you get older the jobs are just not there any more, the job service he signed up for called and told him about a job being a handyman at a church 3o hours a week at $9.00 a hour! Hello, how the heck could we live on that! That is $5.00 less an hour than he was making and we were falling behind with that. Anyway, the issue that is causing me to loose my mind is food stamps! I have filled out all of the paper work faxing everything over to them that I could, and I mailed a copy of the loss of income form to his former employer to sign. I have no idea if his former employer will take the time to sign it and mail it back to them or not.... he did fire my husband so they aren't on the best of terms. Food stamps says they need him to sign it or I can't get it. So needless to say being a nervous eater I am binging on all the wrong stuff. I have already gained a TON of weight back which makes me so sad : ( I was so proud of myself for losing all of that weight and I had never felt so good in my life about how I looked but that is all out the window. I NEED to get ahold of myself and get back on track but when ever I think of what is all going on right now, no job, no food stamps, no money is makes me grab for something to put in my mouth...... all of the great cool looking clothes I bought at the thrift stores are getting too tight for me to wear which makes me so mad.
Well I'm sorry this post is such a downer!
I hope to get myself out of this funk and find my MoJo again soon!!!!!
Until Next Time - God Bless!
Life has taken a turn for the not so good at my house : (
My husband got fired from his job...... needless to say I am a nervous wreak about it.
There aren't many jobs/companies looking for 53 year olds to hire. To be honest with you I am scared to death. As you get older the jobs are just not there any more, the job service he signed up for called and told him about a job being a handyman at a church 3o hours a week at $9.00 a hour! Hello, how the heck could we live on that! That is $5.00 less an hour than he was making and we were falling behind with that. Anyway, the issue that is causing me to loose my mind is food stamps! I have filled out all of the paper work faxing everything over to them that I could, and I mailed a copy of the loss of income form to his former employer to sign. I have no idea if his former employer will take the time to sign it and mail it back to them or not.... he did fire my husband so they aren't on the best of terms. Food stamps says they need him to sign it or I can't get it. So needless to say being a nervous eater I am binging on all the wrong stuff. I have already gained a TON of weight back which makes me so sad : ( I was so proud of myself for losing all of that weight and I had never felt so good in my life about how I looked but that is all out the window. I NEED to get ahold of myself and get back on track but when ever I think of what is all going on right now, no job, no food stamps, no money is makes me grab for something to put in my mouth...... all of the great cool looking clothes I bought at the thrift stores are getting too tight for me to wear which makes me so mad.
Well I'm sorry this post is such a downer!
I hope to get myself out of this funk and find my MoJo again soon!!!!!
Until Next Time - God Bless!
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