Perks of Being a Grandma!

Okay nobody tells you one of the best perks of getting older is being a Grandma! I am amazed at how wonderful it is! When you see a smile on their face is just warms you like nothing else. I love how I can hold and kiss her to my hearts content without any of the stress I felt when I was a parent. Couldn't you kick yourself now looking back at how worried you were about EVERTHING? I mean did it really matter when they were potty trained, when they started to walk or talk? It happens when it happens and every baby is different. I walk into my sons house and by pass my son & daughter-in-law and bee line right over to my little honey and just scoop her up into my arms. I know to well how quickly they grow up! Looking back at everything now I wish I would have had a few more babies along the way. I thought I was good with two but now I know what a blessing from God they are and how truly wonderful it is to bless your life with a child. My daughter will be turning "20" in 16 days!!!!!! I feel very sad about that to tell you the truth.

I know it is the changing of the seasons of our lives when out children grow up and move on with their own lives and we have to just sit back and let them see what dreams life has to offer them. I'm tearing up now so I better leave off here.

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Hate Wasting Days!

Don't you just hate wasting days!!!!! That's what I have been doing way to much of lately!
I find myself not doing anything for the whole day, what a shame. Life is just going by so fast now it seems not right to let a day go by without having it being enjoyed.
I am going to try and make an effort to make the days count in some way...... like my Dad always said "Your dead a long time".
Anyway, I wanted to post this picture of this cute as hell sweater I got at the thrift store. The pictures don't do it justice, it has a staggered design which I think adds a little zing to it instead of wearing a plain ole regular sweater. I paid $3.00 for it and I love it. Now to be honest with you I really didn't have any money to waste on another sweater, since my husband has now been out of work over 16 weeks and has ran out of unemployment. But it was one of those things that if I had left there in the store I would not have been able to think straight, Do you all get like that? Ever since that dress I tried on and put back on the rack to think about and someone came in and swooped it up as soon as I walked away from it (I still dream of that dress), I don't want that kind of thing on my brain again. I get such a lift from going to the thrift stores, it brightens my entire day. I have been very down and depressed, not with just my husband having no job but also with my weight and over all body! I weigh 134 but I hate the way that I feel, my clothes are tight and just don't fit like they used to. I NEED to lose about 10 pounds to get me back into my frisky fighting weight : ) I am reading "Reshaping it all" by Candace Cameron Bure. I am enjoying it and hoping to pick up a few pointers, I'll let you know after I am finished with it what I thought of it.
I am also obsessed with the wrinkles that have appeared under my neck!!!!!! It really makes me look so old! I HATE it! Okay can you tell I am having body issues. If anyone has any tips on products that might help in this area I'd love to try them. I think since we have been very cold here in Florida and I have been using the electric heater it has been drying out my skin so the wrinkles are really popping out. Of course I could wear scarfs to hid the neck - Does that mean another trip to the thrift store ...... : )

Quote of the day: "If you always do what you've always done, Then you'll always get what you've always got. And while what I got had it's perks, I'm looking for something different now".
Anthony DiNozzo - NCIS

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Merry Christmas 2014

Food Cravings

Have you noticed how when you are depressed nothing makes you feel better than eating chocolate? I was just tossing down handfuls of them in hopes of getting a pick me up.... the only thing that you get from them is more discouraged thinking now you are gaining more weight that you don't want! You know the saying a moment on the lips a life time on the hips - Isn't that the truth!
Anyway, I weighed myself last night I am up to 132lbs., I'm not really sure what I had gotten down to maybe 120lbs. but I felt ALOT thinner back than and looked a whole hell of a lot better than I do now so I want to get back to that!
I also want to check my measurements to see where I am with that, I've noticed that since I have been gaining it is ALL going straight to my belly!
I have got to find the old me who was sassy and had energy again. This Donna is always tired and depressed - Be gone with her!!!!!
For breakfast I had two eggs with 5 slices of moringstar farms bacon and a water.
Lunch I had 2 sliced of regular white bread (I can't buy the 45 calorie whole wheat bread I usually get), buffalo chicken patty, a little mayo, a little ketchup and a few grapes.
For dinner I had fried rice, morningstar farm buffalo chicken patty, peas & applesauce.
I did cheat with some peanut butter (which I used to HATE but now I LOVE it) and some more chocolate morsals.
Then while watching Julia & Julie the movie I had another bowl of oatmeal with a few chocolate morsals tossed in. Yikes! I am out of control with eating!
Help!!!!!
On a good note, my husband got a call about a possible job! It is only a couple of days if he gets it so we will see but we are desperate for some money......

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Holidays

I find the holidays to be such a sad time......
We haven't even gotten to December and I feel like crying already! I get a knot in my belly when I read about all those who went black Friday shopping and did their Christmas shopping already. I smile at those folks who tell me what they are going to buy for this person or that person knowing I will not be able to get those I love what I want for them this year. We have had hard times before and by God grace we got thru them, which I pray will happen again this time. When you get into your 50's things should not be this hard. I have said it before but it is true, I never in my wildest dreams thought we would be in a situation where we have to decide every time we shop which items to buy and what we have to do without just because we don't have enough money. I just HATE that this is my granddaughter's first Christmas and I will be lucky if I can buy her a $15.00 glow worm doll! I feel like shit to tell you the truth. As I said we have been in this situation before when my husband ran out of unemployment and we had no money coming in at all. That's an eye opener for sure, you just pray a lot that things will improve. I feel the same situation is lining up for us again, he runs out of unemployment right after Christmas, which is a terrible time to be looking for a job! We are up to our eyeballs with bills (It's funny we have very few bills compared to most others but we still can't get them paid), we owe the electric company two months come Dec. 11th. so we should be getting a shut off notice any day now for the $130.00. Then we have car insurance which we wait to pay until we get the cancellation notice each month from them. We do have internet which costs us $41.00 a month which we try and pay just before the next payment is due so they don't shut that off (my husband has been searching for jobs with it so it is needed). The killer is the car, it broke down two weeks ago, that bill was around $250.00 - we paid $150.00 from that weeks unemployment check which put us behind on all of our bills. Then what happens this week, Yep the dam thing broke down AGAIN and had to be towed in. Here's the kicker this time it cost $400.00 to get fixed!!!!! So now we owe the car repair guy $500.00, he said we can pay a little each week which is very nice of him since my husband is going to need a working car if he is ever to get back to work. But we are just at our wits end thinking about how we are going to make it thru this week with only $38.00 left in checking and we won't get another unemployment check until Dec. 10th.!!!!! We have no food stamp money left either, we get that on Dec. 8th. but I think I have enough things on had to get us thru on food (I hope). We can't ask my son for money because they are up to their eyeballs with all the new expenses with having a baby so where do we turn....... Prayer is our only hope.
If you don't mind please keep us in your prayers.
Thank You!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Happy Day After Thanksgiving!

Hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving with their family & friends. We had a lovely lunch over at my son & daughter-in-laws house. Getting to hold my granddaughter is what life is all about..... so thankful!

And seeing her smile at me just warms my heart!!!

Being a grandma is like looking at your life all over again with glasses on : )

You are able to see all the things that are important and all the things you stresses over that really didn't matter at all.

I just pray my son and his family have good health, joy & laughter through out their lives!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

 

Another Picture of Kylee Marie

My daughter-in-law had a photographer come at take Kylee's picture,

I thought this one came out great : )