Wednesday, August 26, 2015

I love Valerie Bertinelli!

I really am enjoying her books! Each page I read I so can relate to everything she is saying and that is funny because here she is a Hollywood actress who was married to a mega rock star and I can relate to HER life! I love how she loves her son! Page after page of her books just emits the love and pride she has for him, it's just heart warming to read. She is now doing a cooking show on tv, I wish I had a chance to watch it. In the articles I have read it sounds great, of course some of the commenter have to point out that she has gained back the weight she lost. Why do people ALWAYS have to look at the weight first? Anyway, I hope she writes another book about this chapter of her life!
As for me, I weighed myself this morning and it said 145lbs.! I keep saying I can't believe it but why don't I? Almost every day I eat the whole box of weight watcher ice cream bars before 6 o'clock at night plus my other meals and more snacks so why wouldn't I be gaining! In her book Valerie says that she is a stress eater too and she does exercise now instead of going to the fridge and eating all the wrong things to make herself feel better. I have wrapped my brain around that idea I just have to get with it. Last night I did get on my exercise bike and rode for 5 minutes. Which is at least a start for me but than today I bought the gosh dam ice cream AGAIN! I keep telling myself tomorrow will be the day I get back on the horse and stick with the healthy eating and exercise but than I go and blow it. I really don't know why?

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Losing Weight For Disney World Trip!

Hey all!
I have been meaning to post more but it always seems like one thing after another pops up and I get distracted and don't post - Sorry about that!
It has been HOT as hell here in my part of Florida! The humidity is beyond crazy, you go out side and your clothes are literally soaking wet in minutes. So needless to say I have been not walking at night with my daughter as I had pledged to do. I find it funny how even when I TRY to be good outside forces come into play and send me back on my old ways of eating junk & no exercise : (  I have 39 more days until we go to Disney World, and I had wanted to lose some weight, but most of all I want to get back into shape so I can walk the countless miles around the park without "wilting".  Since going outside seems to be pretty much out, I still have my exercise bike I can use, it's just that it is stuck in a very low gear and is very hard to peddle which wears me out after only about 5 minutes on the dam thing..... but at least it will be some exercise.

I have also been reading two really great books by Valerie Bertinelli - Losing It & Finding It if you get a chance to read them please do you will really enjoy them. What I really liked is how she is exactly like me, she understands the emotional eating how things trigger it and sometimes you just can't get it under control. She said in the book that she turns to exercise now when things are stressing her out like a good walk or hike. It must be really tough to be an actress who is a face for a weight loss program, she can never get away from thinking about weight. She has a new cooking show on tv and one of the articles I read about it said she has gained about 15 pounds since losing the 40 pounds using Jenny Craig 5 or 6 years ago, that's the same as me! She says at 5 ft. 5 (same as me) she feels best at about 132lbs. so if she gained 15 pounds she might be around 147 lbs now (I weigh 144lbs.). In the story she said she has ditched the scale and goes more with how she is feeling than what the scale says. I agree with her there but really I FEEL much better when I am in the 135lbs. area.  If I could only lose 9 pounds before my trip the Disney I would be very happy! She posted a saying on face book this morning which really hit home for me: "Yes, you can wish all you want, but wishes don't come true without work" isn't that the truth!! I can sit here and wish all I want to lose more weight but if I keep eating these weight watcher ice cream bars and eating chocolate chips with my oatmeal I will NEVER lose those 9 pounds I am wishing for! I need to put some work into it!!
I'll keep you posted!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Sunday, August 16, 2015

Wasting Weekends

Don't you just hate wasting? I know I sure do! They go by so fast and before you know it Sunday night is staring you in the face. That's what happened this weekend, I blinked and it is over already! I talked with my husband about it, that I feel so depressed when we just waste the weekend without at least doing something that we can enjoy or at least it gives us something to talk about. This weekend we have been bombarded with car troubles.... Man I wish we has a mechanic in the family! First we put my daughter's car in, then while that was still in the shop the brakes on my husband's car starting acting up big time so that will be going in tomorrow. It's such a bummer to blowing money on car repair. I can barely remember what we did Saturday, so that must have been a dud of a day : (  Today we went to the beach and had breakfast at a restaurant on the beach, we spent $15.00 plus a $2.00 tip on breakfast! Isn't that the stupidest thing? 2 eggs & home fries with a glass of water $6.00 and change... What the heck. The whole time on the way home I thought of all the other things I could have done with that $20.00, like buy a book. The one I was thinking of is called, 101 Nights of Great Sex I have been reading this gals webpage and I love her, she is such a hoot to read. I would love to get that book and give it a go with my husband : ) Anyway, I am getting off the topic here. I really want to make an effort to do SOMETHING each weekend that makes it worth while and not a throw away weekend, You know what I mean?

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Friday, August 14, 2015

Mixed Emotions Kinda Day

This past week I have just been swinging back and forth with emotions.
My boss wanted me to take the receptionist job that was opening up at my work place, the work hours were from 11am till 3pm. (4 hours) I would assume at minimum wage. I passed on it. I work from 8am till 11am (3 hours) and I come home and take a nap, I couldn't imagine working another 4 hours - I would be dead. Now I know what you are thinking Dam she only works three hours how can she be so tired..... I have asked myself thin many times. Maybe it is all in my mind that I need a nap, maybe if I just gave the receptionist job a chance I would have been able to do it. But my day like a lot of yours doesn't stop after I get off work, I have to feed all the animals, make dinner, wash dishes ect. THEN I can settle down for the night and maybe watch a movie or read a book ect. If I had taken that job I'm sure I could have gotten all that was needed done in a day, but it just seemed overwhelming for me to think about taking it on. Now here is the mixed emotions part.... Now that they have filled the position, I feel terrible that I didn't take it. I could have really used the extra money!!!!! My husband's job is coming to an end and that is always stressful not knowing if he will find another one or not so if I were to have added hours to my job it would of helped ease the stress about that issue. Don't you just HATE  it when you are not settled in a decision you made. Life is like that, so many decisions are made and you have to live with them, Some turn out good and some bad only time will tell.

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Is it Friday Yet?

Dam, this week has been long and it is only Tuesday! Yikes!
I honestly hate weeks like this one, Life is too short to waste even a minute of a day let alone a whole week just wishing for it to be over.... but that is how I feel about this week.
You know that saying "Everyone is working for the weekend", Isn't that a sad fact when you think about it. You waste the whole entire week of your life just to make some money to be able to pay your bills and hopefully get some fun time in during the weekend.
When I wasn't working I would waste the days too doing a lot of nothing, but now that I work I am really aware of time and how precious it is.
My grand daughter has started to say Da Da, which is just the cutest thing ever. I thank god that I am here to see her growing up. That is what life is all about! I know people who don't have children must find other things to make their life worth living but I could not imagine not having children. I really am aware of how quickly time flies by when you aren't paying attention. I guess when you get to my age bracket things like time becomes very clear.
It's just a fact that we all die and there are no do overs in life no matter how much we wish there were, so you HAVE to make this life the best you can!
I need to remind myself from time to time.....

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Friday, July 24, 2015

One Of Those Days.....

Yea, It's one of those days where I feel like crying!
I wish I could win a million dollars and just get away for awhile from everything.
Today my boss was such a bitch to me it was terrible. I just hate when she talks to me like I am dirt and have no feelings. My husband says I am just too thin skinned, that the working world now a days is nasty at best and I am seeing what he means. I get it that my boss is under major stress with a number of things but I just don't get why she has to be mean to me when I haven't done anything to her ever! I have always felt that being nice gets you so much further in life than if you are a bitch. It's so hard for me to just let it roll off my back, it hurts me when she talks mean to me. Why be like that to your employees? I just don't get it.
Anyway, I am really thinking that a lot of my weight issues is because I am always so stressed at work. Now I know what you are probably saying how can there be stress when you clean cat boxes & an office - I know you would think that it a no brainer but every day there is issues. I am just that kind of person who doesn't handle stress very well at all. So needless to say I bought another box of weight watcher ice cream (that's been almost a box EVERY day this week!). My size small shirts are starting to get tight on me : (  I am really going to have to grab myself and pull myself together!!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

What The Hell : (

Okay here I am this past weekend, my husband, daughter & I went down to Daytona Beach for a nice little get-a-way weekend. I don't look too bad right? Well here I am in a bathing suit!
What the HELL! I look terrible! My legs are like tree trunks. I tell you it really is best to take pictures along your weight loss journey it really gives you a better opinion of what you really look like. During this mini vacation the elevator at the hotel was really slow so we used the stairs, going up 5 flights of stairs countless times I thought for sure I would lose weight - Hell No! I gained : ( I am so bummed out about it, I am now up to 145lbs.!!!!! Dam! The completely sad part is I went and bought a box of the weight watcher ice cream bars and ate the whole box in almost one sitting. Now isn't that a kick in the pants...... Here I am depressed as hell about gaining weight but yet I go and eat more junk. I just can't stop my eating problem, I blame it on stress all the time but dam that excuse is growing old. I want my old body back!!