Ding Dongs - Oh No!

Yes, I have lost total control!!! I was checking out at Dollar General and they had ding dongs by the counter and I bought a whole box : ( As soon as I got in the car I ripped open the box and ate one - It tasted soooooo good! The funny thing is I get such a boost from eating chocolate junk like that that my brain says lets have another for more energy and I DO IT! I know how addicting sugar is for me but yet I eat it anyway - Why? I try and tell my self no but the other half of me says - yes, finally some energy. I don't drink coffee like most people do so chocolate gives me the boost most people get from their java, I wish I could find something that would give that burst of energy like chocolate does without the addiction.
Okay, You all know how I like to read and as I said a good book keeps your mind occupied and your fingers busy so food may not be the first thing on your mind when engrossed in a good book. I got the new Trim Healthy Mama book from my library and at first glance it does look a bit easier to understand. I just seem to have a mental fog when it comes to carbs, fats, protein. I do not know how to eat right - obviously!! I am hoping to get the new THM cookbook and some of their products to start the New Year off on the right eating foot. I have such a gut now, it hangs over my pants : (  I was thinking of joining a local swim & gym place that is not too far from my work, it would be great to get this old body moving again but at this point I can not imagine having enough energy to do it : (  I  did buy the Alive! Women's 50+ vitamins, I have not been taking vitamins lately since I ran out so maybe this will help get me back on track!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Pain - What Do You Do?

I have been having my eyes opened for sure lately!
I used to complain about things but I have to tell you now that I have been dealing with this pain in my elbow and hand it really makes you appreciate how you used to feel before!!
I am constantly thinking about how when you feel like you can't possibly go on because you hurt and want to just lay down and take a nap but you can't you HAVE to go to work. It is beyond me how people who are alone and sole supporting themselves do it. It is scary as HELL! You just have to do it - I pray that I get better and I don't have to face this pain the rest of my life!

Finally The Weekend!

Whooo Hooo I made it to the weekend! It sure was an up and down week for me. A very strange week at that for sure. One of the highlights was my family & I went up to St. Augustine to see the "Night of Lights', the town is all decorated with lights - very pretty! The thing of it is when you go with my son he always wants a plan on things to see he doesn't like to just roam around. I didn't have it planned out very well and we missed a lot. My grand daughter was not dressed warm enough for being by the water and her little hands were frozen which was not a good thing so we didn't stay very long (of course when paying the $12.00 to park in the garage I hate leaving so quickly).

Of course looking at the pictures that we took that night I see how much weight I have gained. Pictures really can tell you so much, my hips are huge again and my upper thighs need a lot of work. Which brings me to one of the downers of the week, most of my adult life I have used Advil to take care of my aches, pains & headaches ect. well this week I have been having pains in my elbow area that are painful only when I pick something up and it is getting worse. The scary part is that Advil does absolutely nothing for the pain! I won't lie is scares the shit out of me, I can't have pains that are debilitating! I don't have insurance and there is no way I can afford to go to the doctors and have tests done. I pray that this heals itself up and goes away!
As for my boss things leveled out by the end of the week and she was back to her nice self again. I guess life just has it's ups and downs and you just have to ride out the wave!!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Blood Pressure & Weight

While I was at Publix today I had my blood pressure done. It was 111/66 with a plus of 84 - It said that this is normal. Now here comes the "Oh My Gosh" no point, It said I weighed 148 lbs.!!!!!! My scale at home says 146.2, I know it is only another 2 pounds but dam it sounds way worse! It said I was "normal" in weight range for my 5ft. 5 height but I'm real close to being over weight again : ( I had a bad day at work again but I controlled myself while shopping (I had Ding Dongs in the cart at one point but put them back). I did buy a pot pie & yogurt and that is what I had for lunch (I know the pot pie is terribly high in calories but I need something fast and easy). I came home after pick my daughter up from babysitting and took a nap! Yes a dam NAP! I am so tired all the time. I wonder if by taking the melatonin at night it is making me sluggish during the day but I really need help getting to sleep otherwise it takes me forever to fall asleep and before you know it it's time to start the next day. It is already 4:12 and I have not taken my walk yet so that looks like it is out for today because it gets dark so early now I won't have time to feed all the animals and get dinner ready and have time for that. I must get on the bike and do some time on that tonight. Anyway, I MUST read the Trim Healthy Mama book and getting moving!!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

What a difference a day makes.....

Friday I felt like I was finally on the road to getting my mojo back, I was excited about reading the new Trim Health Mama book from my library as I had posted they weren't open. So fast forward to today which I was hoping was going to be a redo of Friday but with getting the book well hell no it turned out to be a crappy day! My boss was a beast today, I never know which boss I am getting the nice friendly one or the one who is bitchy about everything. I knew from them minute I walked into the door the day was going to be one of those days that I hate, but thank God I am only there for three hours! After I got off of work I went over and picked up the Trim Healthy Mama book and said to myself that I really need to read it and understand it and put it in to action asap! I weighed myself this morning and I weigh 146.2 lbs.!!!!! Hello, I haven't been that heavy in a LONG time and it made me feel so down and distraught about myself. I sat out in the sun (I know not good for the winkles) and started reading it. The sun made me sleepy and I came in and took a nap : (  How can I ever lose weight if I am always tired? I took about an hour nap and then read a little than took a walk around the block, I guess it's a start. Stress is a killer it just saps the life right out of you for sure, I need to focus my stress into walking. I want to take a before picture of what my body looks like now and then each month as I am on the Trim Healthy Mama plan. Well I'm off to do some reading, Good night all!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Tick Bite - Oh My!

Okay Scary stuff here! I got a tick bite on my back and dam it looks nasty already!

Of course I have been reading all about lyme disease and sure hope I don't get that!!

In all the site I have read it says if the bulls eye pattern shows up 7 to 10 days after the bite, this mess showed up while the tick was still on biting me. I guess I will just keep an eye on it and watch for symptoms to show up as I really would hate going to the clinic and having to pay $45.00 and have them tell me there is no reason to worry about the bit.

Life sure is never a dull moment!!

Until Next Time - God Bless!!

Bubble Busted

Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving! The way I think of it is one holiday down one more to go..... I know that's a terrible way to think about it but that's the way it feels for me.
I was feeling a bit on the jovial side lately which always seems to come with a punch in the guy around the corner and of course it happened. I was feeling so happy that my local library got the new Trim Healthy Mama book. I have the older version but it is so large and I had such a hard time wrapping my brain around it, so I am hoping this book condenses the information in a easier was for me to understand it. Well like how I get when I am all jazzed up about something I couldn't wait till I got out of work on Friday to pick up the book, I had planned on spending the weekend with a glass of ice water and my book out on the lounge chair sitting in the sun - but no! The library was closed Friday, I guess they took the day after the holiday off too. That was a downer but I figured this will give me some time to focus on cleaning the house, which I did mop the floors (still a total mess). I get the mail and bam! We owe $250.37 on our electric bill and they are shutting us off December 4th. That just blew all of the steam I had in me out. This is why I tell you you need to work on all areas of your life if you plan on losing and keeping off the weight! When you hit up against stressful you have to be able to handle it without food being your comforter! Do you know what I did when I opened the bill? I threw in a pot pie into the micro wave because it was an easy meal and it was something I didn't have to think about. Pot pies are a terrible meal to have if you are trying to lose weight, I think they are like 350 calories plus I don't eat meat so I only eat the crust - Hello! Why blow that many calories on that! Anyway, I am totally deflated. All that get up and go attitude has left me. We are just under water with bills, I pray that we get this under control soon - It is just so stressful it ruins every day!!
Thank you for letting me ramble on and vent - It does help.

Until Next Time - God Bless!!